official last day of school today.
with the student at home e-learning...
the school seems exceptionally quiet.
those present are mainly the teachers and staff.
there's a few student in school though i dont know why they turn up.
spent the time in the staff room online and polishing boot.
was chatting to jer on msn and he's so mean can=X
instead of helping me (or offering to) polish my boot...
he still say im crazy for wanting to make it shine=X
had chr alumni meeting in the afternoon.
and i dont know why am i the treasurer><
argh.
do i really have the treasurer's look?
after 2 years of being the treasurer in touch rugby...
i thought i wont come across it yet now it seems im stuck with it again=X
chanel came to school for some drill pract.
im really appreciate her effort.
it's like she take the initiative to want to master it and dont mind coming to school even though it's not a school day(=
went with the relief staff for gelare at cwp,followed by dinner at pastamania.
tired.
hopefully,i will be refresh for the syf pract. tomorrow.





im so afraid im not up to the job.
that i may not be good enough.
im all stress up when im doing drill.
worried that i may make the slightest mistake.
that my leg never bang properly.that my posture not good enough.that i will do the wrong command.
especially when im the contigent commander and it's really obvious if i make a mistake.
i wish that i can perform up to standard and i dont mind the hard work and stuff.

im tired.
physically and mentally.